There were three men in the room. Three men and me and an ashtray. And the one in the middle, Mr. Lindqvist, he was the sales manager, very nice man actually, he looked at my application and he said, now Carol, are you planning to start a family? Just like that. And I said, I'm planning to sell catheters, Mr. Lindqvist. And the other two laughed, and he laughed, and I got the job. I was twenty-two.
The Halloween blizzard. Ninety-one. I was in Des Moines for a hospital meeting, I was supposed to fly home Halloween afternoon, and it started snowing at home and it didn't stop. Kirsten was a witch and Eric was a Ninja Turtle, and of course they had to wear their snowsuits under the costumes, so the Turtle was about twice as wide. And I called at seven-thirty and Kirsten was crying because I'd promised I'd be home to carve the pumpkin. And I sat on the bed in that motel with the phone cord, and I'd never felt like that before.
I kept a Day-Timer, the little black binder, and in the back pages I wrote down every single thing I missed. The Christmas concert in ninety. Kirsten's spelling bee, she went out on rhythm, which, honestly, who can spell rhythm. Then one night, I want to say ninety-two, I turned to the front of the book and I wrote down what I'd done. The account in Grand Forks. Paying the mortgage on my own. And I made myself read both. I kept doing that. Both lists.
